Psychosis Journal (2018)
The motives behind Psychosis Journal were twofold; I was becoming increasingly aware that Mad people have struggled to sustain archives that would authentically describe their experiences and be recognized by others. Beyond the challenge of acquiring medically-based documentation, the fear and subsequent misunderstanding of mental disabilities and how they manifest facilitates the invalidation, distrust, and anger towards Mad people, thus discrediting their voice. My response to the overall lack of available archives, which seemed to reinforce the stigmas that impact Mad people still today, in conjunction with widespread misinformation on mental illnesses such like schizophrenia, instilled in me a great need to archive my psychotic states. Over the course of about seven months, I attempted to draw and write when I experienced psychosis as a form of record-keeping, that could perhaps, offer a glimpse into my symptomatic mind. The result was an unfinished book--essentially, a visual container of my own epistemology--that was then translated through interpretative movements, as if to observe madness on the surface of the body and in space.
This piece was performed live at Outerspace Studios in Chicago. The video is currently unavailable. A selection of the entries are scanned below.
